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Wednesday, 16 January 2013

Ulcerative Colitis - Goodbye

Something I have realised: Ulcerative colitis; It’s in the past for me now.

Yet people I haven’t seen for a long time will ask me “… and how’s your . . .” then mouth the word tummy. I understand that people are genuinely concerned and wishing me well. But I moved on a long time ago now. Sometimes I even wonder why they are asking such an odd question. I can even admit to you, dear reader, that I find it slightly irritating, despite the very good intentions behind the questions.

Gone are the days when I spent hours worrying about my diet, or even whether I should eat at all. I no longer worry about where the nearest lavatory is.

OK sometimes I’m a bit self conscious of my physical form, but even that I can lve with. Before the surgical removal of the colon and the creation of a stoma I thought it was something I would never be able to live with. But I can, and it’s alright.

Diagnoses was frightening, living with it was difficult, treatment was radical and full of fear, but even in the depths I found there was something valuable to be learned there.

The causes of Ulcerative Colitis seem to as mysterious as they where in 1997, and the experience, signs and symptoms are still just the same. I’ve been disembowelled, and I have “moved on”. It’s in the past; it’s total and complete.

Have I been defined by it? Maybe a little too much, and it occurs to me that I am complicit in that by, amongst other things, writing this blog.

I was lucky. I didn’t have Cancer and this is not so bad by comparison. I feel that perhaps I have come to the end of my commentary.

So until something that is relevant and worth reporting comes along I wish you health and happiness and, finally, leave a link to another blog that I hope you may find of interest:

Be well.